Our world, has all different types of pressure.
Pressure to do good in school, pressure to be cool, pressure to be perfect, pressure to be normal, pressure to be talented, pressure to be skinny, pressure to be anything society wants us to be.
Don't lie. we all give into pressure, even without knowing it. But don't worry, if you feel bad, the rest of the world thinks you're perfect. oh no but whatever you do, don't mess up. because if you mess up apparently you're going to hell.
but why would we go to hell? You mess up a few times, but that's not enough evil to send you to hell, right?
Me, myself gives into pressure all the time. whether if its just for a thrill to hang with the "big kids" or if, i feel in danger if i didn't do something.
there's something about giving into pressure that makes life so desirable, so intriguing and rebellious and it makes you feel like a complete badass but once that wonderful feeling passes, what exactly are we left with? the feeling of guilt and worry.
honestly, who's the real victim here. us, or our reputation?
think about it.
bethy x
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Love
I for one, don't believe in love. i think there can be a very large liking between two people, but love is overrated i think. because in the end, it dies out like a sparkler on fourth of July. it's pretty and sparkly and glowing but then it turns into ash and the spark dies out. not to be a pain in the ass or anything, for those of you in a relationship, maybe you guys are an exception to this society we call home.
There's something about the word love, that makes people happy. they like the thought of it, they like the feeling of possibly being that duo in love.
for optimist's, love is a big thing. They think they're falling, hoping, waiting for someone to catch them at the bottom.
for pessimists, love is a thing, that does not exist. but then again, their state of mind can change. and once they think they're falling like the optimists, they dread it, to them it's horrible, its like their whole life was a lie.
now you can call me wrong, or have different beliefs but i choose to not dream about love, until i feel it myself.
what i want, is a Teenage Dream love. temporary, desirable, unstoppable, and insanely beautiful.
and what you probably want, is the same thing. but a forever kind.
anyway, those are my thoughts of love. agree or disagree, somewhere inside you kinda think that too.
bethy x
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Granted
Taking things for granted is a very overly common thing. now I'm not saying "oh look what you have that Africans don't" that's not it.
What i'm saying is people take friendships for granted. way too much. here's a story that happened to me a few weeks ago.
my best friend lives 6 hours away, and she came back home for a weekend visit on spring break. i was super excited, and i had to do a bunch of chores just to go. that night, she decided to facetime her boyfriend and his friend. so we invited our other friend to come over also, And we had a blast. but then, her boyfriend only wanted to talk to her, so she made us go to bed. i was really angry that she'd choose him over us when she can see him whenever she wanted to.
and i guess i was okay with it, like yeah being apart can suck, i'll just let them talk. but we got into a small argument, and she got mad because me and our other friend wanted to go to church together in the morning, So she felt left out. but then again, she hadn't even wanted to go. and she was leaving us out of the conversation. So then i decided not to go, and our other friend would just go.
the next morning, she kept taking snapchat videos of me, doing embarrassing things without me really knowing. I got a little upset inside because she was making me look bad to her friends back at home, i mean i realize now that i couldn't give less of a shit about it, but a few weeks ago it made me cringe. her friends would make fun of my laugh which i am very insecure of, but i pretended i didn't care. truth is, i did.
anyway. that same night, she had facetimed her boyfriend again. and it was about 2 am and i was breaking down. i sobbed, and pinched myself, and hurt myself, and the worst part was that she was only two feet away from me. still she ignored me, now i'm not sure if she knew or didn't know, but she continued to facetime and laugh with him.
it just made me sob even more, the feeling of being unwanted, and betrayed, and useless, and annoying, and hurt, all at the same time was horrible, it was like i wasn't even breathing in her eyes.
the next day, she continued to facetime him and ignore me. they only had been together four days and she told him, "i love you more than her." even though she was slightly joking, it fucking hurt. because she could love someone she met four days ago, more than someone she met 8 years ago.
it was like, i was the front wheel of a tricycle and they were the back. i was the reason they even had to face time and they were in the back of the bike, talking to eachother.
i couldn't get her attention for more than 2 minutes.
i remember whispering to myself in her bathroom, "i want to die."
the point of this, is that You shouldn't ever ignore someone once you find somebody else, You could be crushing their entire world in that second, making them feel like they're in some sort of freak show, or that they're not wanted by the one person they truly loved and would stick by them no matter what happened.
Don't let a relationship tear another form of relationship down just because its new.
bethy x
What i'm saying is people take friendships for granted. way too much. here's a story that happened to me a few weeks ago.
my best friend lives 6 hours away, and she came back home for a weekend visit on spring break. i was super excited, and i had to do a bunch of chores just to go. that night, she decided to facetime her boyfriend and his friend. so we invited our other friend to come over also, And we had a blast. but then, her boyfriend only wanted to talk to her, so she made us go to bed. i was really angry that she'd choose him over us when she can see him whenever she wanted to.
and i guess i was okay with it, like yeah being apart can suck, i'll just let them talk. but we got into a small argument, and she got mad because me and our other friend wanted to go to church together in the morning, So she felt left out. but then again, she hadn't even wanted to go. and she was leaving us out of the conversation. So then i decided not to go, and our other friend would just go.
the next morning, she kept taking snapchat videos of me, doing embarrassing things without me really knowing. I got a little upset inside because she was making me look bad to her friends back at home, i mean i realize now that i couldn't give less of a shit about it, but a few weeks ago it made me cringe. her friends would make fun of my laugh which i am very insecure of, but i pretended i didn't care. truth is, i did.
anyway. that same night, she had facetimed her boyfriend again. and it was about 2 am and i was breaking down. i sobbed, and pinched myself, and hurt myself, and the worst part was that she was only two feet away from me. still she ignored me, now i'm not sure if she knew or didn't know, but she continued to facetime and laugh with him.
it just made me sob even more, the feeling of being unwanted, and betrayed, and useless, and annoying, and hurt, all at the same time was horrible, it was like i wasn't even breathing in her eyes.
the next day, she continued to facetime him and ignore me. they only had been together four days and she told him, "i love you more than her." even though she was slightly joking, it fucking hurt. because she could love someone she met four days ago, more than someone she met 8 years ago.
it was like, i was the front wheel of a tricycle and they were the back. i was the reason they even had to face time and they were in the back of the bike, talking to eachother.
i couldn't get her attention for more than 2 minutes.
i remember whispering to myself in her bathroom, "i want to die."
the point of this, is that You shouldn't ever ignore someone once you find somebody else, You could be crushing their entire world in that second, making them feel like they're in some sort of freak show, or that they're not wanted by the one person they truly loved and would stick by them no matter what happened.
Don't let a relationship tear another form of relationship down just because its new.
bethy x
Mistakes
we all make mistakes, right? but in reality, if you make one mistake the world doesn't go by "we all make mistakes" the world takes it as a chance to metaphorically throw you down and beat your soul to death because news flash, you're not perfect.
Even if you have a shred of hope everyone will understand, they won't and they don't, unless they're just like you. one will never Truly understand one other's feelings. that's just a fact.
now i know what you're thinking "man this is such a deadbeat post" like hah same, but enough of the heavy.
me myself, tries to avoid mistakes because i dance around rocks and bombs that look exactly the same to save myself from everyone else's disappointment.
But truth is, mistakes are just like Ariana grande claiming she feels fat. it passes, just like that feeling.
if people can't just let your mistakes go, then fuck them! you're way better than that.
when i was a little girl, i used to say "chop" instead of "stop" and i thought it was okay, i didn't really notice it. but then at camp, kids would make fun of me and call me stupid and such other bullshit. So one day, at summer camp, me and my fellow cabin mate, were fighting and i said "i'll chop it if you chop it" and i got in trouble because they thought i was violent. so i was banned from activities that hour, it sucked, really.
moral of the story, I Made a Grammar mistake and got punished for it.
why are we getting punished for mistakes? like sure maybe thats how we learn not to do it again, or that it is in fact a mistake. but that mistake wasn't my fault at all.
and i guess my point is, don't fucking judge or punish someone for a mistake until they ATLEAST explain themselves.
no matter what, i'd still accept you.
bethy x
Even if you have a shred of hope everyone will understand, they won't and they don't, unless they're just like you. one will never Truly understand one other's feelings. that's just a fact.
now i know what you're thinking "man this is such a deadbeat post" like hah same, but enough of the heavy.
me myself, tries to avoid mistakes because i dance around rocks and bombs that look exactly the same to save myself from everyone else's disappointment.
But truth is, mistakes are just like Ariana grande claiming she feels fat. it passes, just like that feeling.
if people can't just let your mistakes go, then fuck them! you're way better than that.
when i was a little girl, i used to say "chop" instead of "stop" and i thought it was okay, i didn't really notice it. but then at camp, kids would make fun of me and call me stupid and such other bullshit. So one day, at summer camp, me and my fellow cabin mate, were fighting and i said "i'll chop it if you chop it" and i got in trouble because they thought i was violent. so i was banned from activities that hour, it sucked, really.
moral of the story, I Made a Grammar mistake and got punished for it.
why are we getting punished for mistakes? like sure maybe thats how we learn not to do it again, or that it is in fact a mistake. but that mistake wasn't my fault at all.
and i guess my point is, don't fucking judge or punish someone for a mistake until they ATLEAST explain themselves.
no matter what, i'd still accept you.
bethy x
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